19 May Bonus YSS: Thoughts and feelings behind suicide
A look inside the mind of someone contemplating suicide
Are you still feeling confused about why someone would ever commit suicide? Or, if you happen to be someone who is actually thinking about suicide, are you still contemplating suicide because you think that no one gets it or knows how you really feel? Below are a few examples of the thoughts and feelings someone who is thinking about suicide might have.
The purpose of this post is certainly not to bring you down – these thoughts are HEAVY. The purpose here is to see if you recognize any of these thought patterns in yourself or maybe a friend. If so, you know what you need to do – find help.
I am worthless. Totally worthless. No one likes me and the world would be better off without me. Everyone at school thinks I am a complete loser: that’s why they pick on me or ignore me. Sometimes I feel like I don’t exist. And my parents, well, they really don’t understand. They just don’t get it and I think they will be better off without me – they are always so worried about me. If I died, they wouldn’t have to worry anymore and I wouldn’t be such a burden.
If you feel this way, those are your feelings and your feelings matter. If you feel unwanted because of the way your parents treat you, that can be devastating. Some parents just don’t know how to act in a way that is loving. Or they may truly be acting in a way they feel is best, but it just doesn’t feel loving to you. Either way, feeling loved by your caregivers is critical and if you don’t feel it, then you should seek help.
I can’t take it any more. All the fighting in my house, all the people at school telling me I’m crazy. Pushing me around. The world is such an ugly place. I need to escape it. I can’t stand all the pain I see, everywhere. It’s all around and there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it.
I hate my self. I am so ashamed. I don’t want anyone to know who I really am because if they did they would just hate me as much as I do. I’m different and don’t fit in. I think I might be gay but if anyone knew that that would be disgusted. It’s wrong to feel that way – everyone tells me that. It would be better if I just didn’t exist.
The thoughts above are signs of someone feeling overwhelmed with emotions – emotions that are very challenging to manage. This person needs to talk to someone to learn that there are ways to manage things that are happening. There are people who can help – who want to help.
These are just a few examples of the genuine thoughts of a person who is struggling with depression and possible suicide. If you are that person, or know someone having thoughts like this, please take action to find help. What will your first step be? Great. Now make a plan and do it. Please. Thank you.